How can i divorce my pregnant wife, without feeling sad or depressed?p>?

Well, I know I should be more mature for 22, and that I should take responsibilities for my actions. But, I think I’m ruining my life right now, i’ve gotten atatched to my wife. I got married to a beautiful girl with a great body, for the wrong reasons. I basically fell in love with her looks and was stupid enough to marry her despite her baggage and all when I was completely aware of it, but I was too stupid to listen to my brain and ended up listening to my penis.

Anyway, I met my wife at a strip-club, and honestly she was the first hot woman to give me her full attention, so I was obsessed or something and asked her out. She played hard to get at first, but I treated her nicer than most guys did, and ended up marrying her.
But, the thought of leaving her always crossed my mind before and after we got married, and for the most immature reasons too. One, I sometimes got jealous of my stepdaughter, and the fact that her father got my wife pregnant, but never took it out on her. Two, fact that she was a stripper and took money for sex a few times, so she says after being in the business for 5 years. I sometimes think she will cheat while I’m in America working for us. I sometimes think she will cheat on me with her daughter’s father. Because when they were together, he cheated on her and they broke up, but she kept going back to him for sex. She said she only did it because she was lonely. They broke up 5 years ago, and were seeing each other occasionally for 4 years, all this before we met. It never happened when she was with me, but it crosses my mind sometimes. I also hate the fact that I have to pay for someone else’s child, but at the same time I don’t want my wife to ask her daughter’s father for money because that would involve them talking, and since I’m jealous and will think the worst, I prefer my wife not to talk to him at all.

Sometimes I’m happy that she’s having my kid and that she’s mine and no one else’s, but sometimes I get pissed that I have to support her and her daughter and at the same time try to finish school. Sometimes I even think about dropping off college just to be with her.

You see, when I’m with her we argue and I want to escape, but when I’m away from her, like I am now, I miss her and want to be with her and the baby she’s having, even my stepdaughter. But I’m scared to death to tell my parents, and have so much on my chest I will need to unload on them. And each day is eating me up but can’t tell them.
You see the problem is even bigger, my parents don’t know I am married or that I got a girl pregnant in south America, and when I married her I told them I wasn’t going to marry anyone and that I would finish school, and I also told them I was wearing a condom. I actually never wore a condom, I tried to get her pregnant all the consequences and having those bitter feeling about her past and daughter.

STORY OF HOW MY PARENTS HAVE NO CLUE: You see, I went on vacation last year and met my wife, came back to the states saved up money and lied to my parents about going to college and ran away and left for south America without telling my parents. All this because I wanted to be with this girl, now my wife. I don’t think I felt love for her, but whatever it was, it was strong enough for me to run away at 22 and go live with her for half a year. My parents were sad and destroyed I elft without telling them anything, so they helped me and paid for me to return to the states to finish college, but I never told them about the wedding that took place that I didn’t invite them to because I was scared they would not help me out when they found out. or that they have a daughter in law who’s pregnant. They do know she was a stripper and took money for sex though. Long story short, they found out because my cousin told them, since he was with me when I met her. I actually invited them to my wedding, but when I find out they knew what my wife did, and after them telling me I would not receive any more financial help from them if I married her, then that’s when I told them I wasn’t getting married anymore, but did.

I wish I could hate this girl enough to not care if she got an abortion and move on, but I can’t. Now I can’t stand the idea that she won’t be in my life and will be with someone else, if I break with her.

How can I move on, without having feelings for my wife? Or who can I seek help to mature and stop feeling like this towards my stepdaughter, and trust my wife more. So, far she’s been good. She stopped stripping for me, and stays at home with her daughter and she cooked and did everything a normal wife does when I was living with her. I want to bring her here, but I would need my parents help to co sponser her, but im scared to tell my parents about us. How can I move on without feeling anything for her???

What should i do????